Sunday, November 15, 2009

the shakes

Hi from a newly launched smart phone that shares its name with Star Wars robots.

No, I'm not saying the name here because the company that introduced it is my new PR client and I try to keep my pixelated life separate from my professional one.

Anyway, cool phone that lets me blog, huh? It has a high-res screen with a little QWERTY keyboard that slides out from under it, which is cool because I hate the touch-screen one.

My MacBook is STILL in the shop and I will admit that I'm not handling not having a computer very well. I feel so disconnected. I decided to hold off on buying the new computer because my new job is intense, so much so that I sincerely think I'm in over my head. I've come home and bawled three nights out of my first week.

I'm slightly concerned that I'm either going to get canned or end up sneaking out of the building and running for my life. I wish the tempting tempting Greyhound Bus station weren't right under my office window.

All that "woe is me" aside, I miss the brief escape that slipping into a Second Life gives me. I'm in this highly stressful job where I'm getting paid mega bucks to crank out highly creative ideas and unfortunately I can't access the one place that lets the right side of my brain run wild. It's almost physically painful, but maybe if I was so dependent on this particular outlet for release, I needed to have it yanked away from me anyway.

I wish they'd make a Second Life app for smart phones though. :D

Hope everyone's fabulous. ♥


Tymmerie Thorne said...

'Princess Leia' is a stupid name for a phone. I'm just sayin'. :-P

Tymmerie Thorne said...

Ok. I just realized that I read too fast and my attempt at a Star Wars joke was a huge fail. Princess Leia is not a robot. :-/

Terri Zhangsun said...

I've been there crying in someones office because I didn't think I could do my new job. Now I could do it blindfolded with my hands tied behind my back. Just hang in there. You will wind up knowing it inside and out in no time!

Krissy Muggleston said...

It's a good thing to start a new job with some fear. If you started a new job and felt completely comfortable, then you wouldn't be pushing yourself to that next level, would you? It's called growth! :) I'm sure you are doing great.

Whispers said...

Psh you will rock at your new job! Now about that Do you love it? That's my next big purchase item. Tell me allll about it! *hugs* Hang in there you WILL be great at your job in no time!

Chalice Carling said...

Just like Terri said, I used to go to work shaking with butterfly's in the pit of my stomach...I never thought I'd get a handle on it. I did and you will too.

They didn't hire you because you couldn't do it, they hired you because you can. Be kind on yourself just a little :-))

Quaintly Tuqiri said...

Erinn, when I started teaching last year I felt frightened at the enormity of what I was doing, like "Who am I to teach?" and, "What if I teach the wrong thing?" (lmao) and "How will I mark their papers?" and so on... because you know, language can be subjective so I wasn't even sure how to grade an essay. But you get the hang of it, and after the first semester I was happily adapting materials to be used in class, designing new grading rubrics... so give yourself some time to adjust, and soon you'll find yourself settling in as if you've always been there ;)

Aisuru Rieko said...

all I have to say is *hugs* and I believe in you! I'm positive you will do a great job and in no time it'll be a lot easier! <3